Rage

When there is a special edition of a parent rage blog, you know something really bad has happened...

So I'll start with a previous blog. There was a backyard key, because my mom wouldn't let me have one. And she attached it to a 1ft by 6inch piece of wood. But it's inconvenient going into the backyard to get the key, and why the hell will hse not let me have one. I'd like to think that I"m ressponsible enough to have a key. With just a year and 2 months until college, if I can't have a house key there is something seriously wrong.

So I disattached the key from the block of wood and put it on a keychain. And then my mom asked about the keychain, and had a fit, and I put it back.

So then I just carried it around loose (note, don't do that)

I had it yesterday coming home from school. Sometime between yesterday after school and this morning, it ended up outside of my pocket.

So I couldn't find it, so I called my mom and confessed this morning. She got really mad (I was afraid what would happen if I didn't tell the truth, and she always says she will have a better reaction if I don't lieee) Wellllll that didn't work out. She had a huge fit, and started saying about how I wasn't ready for college, I have no responsibility, etc. SO I get home from school, she tells me to look. SHe yells at me for a very very very very long time about lack of responsibility. And about how my brother is more responsible than me, and about how he can have a housekey, but I won't have access to one, so I can't even get in until 5:00 two days a week.

So at this point, after being told I was soooo irresponsible I got mad. And when you get mad you make less than optimal decisions.

I know that my mom doesn't need to use the car/house key until like 6:00. So I take the key and leave to get a couple keys cut. One to "replace" the one I lost, and one to use for myself. TO put on a keychain.

Well, alas my mom finds out what I was doing. So I"m leaving OSH.

And she pulls up at like 40mph in the parking lot, with squealing tires. I thought there was a robber taking off or something along those lines. And the OSH people hear it and run out, and are like SLOW DOWN MA'AM. And then she yells at me. "show me the keys, all of them" At this point I'm just sitting there sort of shocked like lolwut. AND THE RECEIPT. YOU CUT MORE THAN 2 DIDN"T YOU. SO I show her the reciept.

And then she said "WHEN YOU GET HOME SOMETHING IN YOUR ROOM WILL BE MISSING"

And then she took off, almost hitting my foot, and causing the OSH worker to yell at her again, and look at my with sympathy. SO now I"m at the nearby library contemplating what the hell to do. What should I do?

Sigh.

Froadac's Contradictions

Again, listening to the Star Trek Film Score.


I highly recommend you at least check it out. Apart from the movie being excellent, I find myself listening to it like all the time tt



But that aside I figured it was time to officially launch this blog of sorts. Although I think I'll be blogging daily on various topics, I thought my first post would best be to express a sort of internal conflict that many people have.


But I probably exemplify it more than most.

As many of you know, my parents are often overbearing, and at times draconian. My mom will go on long useless tangential rants about my inability to do anything productive. She will tell me that because I didn't sleep at 11:00 she literally feels like killing me. But more so than any of this annoyance, my major conflict over the last couple years has admittedly been between myself, how I am perceived, and my parents.


Ever since my surgeries occurred, I have admittedly not done as well in school as I would have liked. My GPA is still a bit over 4.0, and I'm not really that satisfied with it. But the only reason it really upsets me so much is my mom contends that I do not care. But even this is not the real conflict.

The real conflict is between how my peers treat me, and how my parents treat me. Heck, even how my teachers treat me. Although my mom won't let me get a driver's license, let me go to a LAN in Berkeley, or be away for dinner EVER, at school I am treated with a lot of respect. People come to me with their questions, liken me to widely liked people in the classes before us.

Next year I will be the president of the second largest club on campus. I'll be dealing with the most money of any club on campus, and I'll be managing around 60 individuals.


But I still lack the ability to drive or be out of the house?

Another deep contradiction that I have fought over is the fact my parents often cite my gross immaturity. Although there are indeed moments where I have made seriously poor judgements, I would like to think my judgements are pretty accurate. I am indeed an administrator on the English language Wikipedia, which bears a ton of responsibility. Apart from the responsibilities of being one of 800 active administrators, I also am a member of the OTRS team, which deals with a variety of legal complains, as well as requests for copyright permission. Yes. So immature.

But in the end I need to reconcile these differences. Even though my mom has no friends, yet insults my lack of sociality, and others talk to me as some sort of highly competent person at school that I may or may not be, it comes down to me to reconcile the differences. Whether it be by improving my physique by lifting weights, ignoring my mom's comments, or really addressing my own lesser faults, I must address my contradictions.

Also can't figure out whether to get a SteelSeries Kinzu, razer mouse, or MX 518

Also looking at a New Steelseries Siberia In-Ear Stereo Earset

In terms of keyboard I'll either get mechanical or a Qsenn.

"Not First Post" boredom rant

So I'm sitting here after just working out (Starting Strength is good) and I really don't know what to do. I'm listening to the Star Trek theme from the newest movie (best theme ever, by the way, excluding John Williams) With AP testing over with, I don't have a whole lot to do. I'm trying to download Portal 2 from Steam, but unfortunately the verification keeps on failing, and my internet is really slow.....

As an example of my boredom, today I went to school, sat in Calculus with 3 other people because the seniors were on a class trip. Then I went to English and took pictures with a D400, but unfortunately it's not mine: it's borrowed. Then, I went to History and listened to an 89 year old speak.

I got home, got my mom a birthday gift, worked out, read grapes of wrath, played three ladder games (Won TvP, TvT, lost TvZ) and sat at the computer doing nothing for approximately two hours, looking up internet.

Which brings me onto an entirely different point. Although I live in a city which is home to the corporate headquarters of AT&T and Comcast, all of the internet is absurdly expensive. I spend like 25/month for .6mbps download, .3 upload. Now, my parents think this is fast. Unfortunately, it's really awfully slow :P (like you didn't know that)

The only thing I have left to do for school, besides study for calc (tt) is to do a quick video presentation with pictures I took from a "Gatsby Memorial" we did in English. I have a bunch of pictures, and now I need to put them into a video with some video and audio clips. And maybe some effects.

I'll get that done tomorrow.

I've also been looking into mice and keyboards. I'm primarily looking at kinzu and mx518, and some sort of mechanical keyboard (or Qsenn depending on how much I want to spend) But I can't seem to get my hands onto anything. Although I certainly want to have a mechanical keyboard, I dont' want to get one if I haven't used one at all.

Right now my grades aren't the best. I have 2 As, 4 Bs. :/ Which leaves me at a 4.4 GPA, which leaves my cumulative at like 4.02. :/ Really need to dig down and drag some of those up. And my calculus grade is low, still with a final coming up.

Well, I was going to write some sort of interesting first blog post today, but alas I couldn't think of anything.

But think of this is a precursor. But I'd better get to sleep. As my mom said yesterday "I won't tell you what I want to do, because if I did what I wanted to do there would be a homicide investigation." Yeah, thanks a lot.

(Let's try and avoid a dead froadac.)

So, how should I get focused, motivated, and have things to do >.>