I highly recommend you at least check it out. Apart from the movie being excellent, I find myself listening to it like all the time tt
But that aside I figured it was time to officially launch this blog of sorts. Although I think I'll be blogging daily on various topics, I thought my first post would best be to express a sort of internal conflict that many people have.
But I probably exemplify it more than most.
As many of you know, my parents are often overbearing, and at times draconian. My mom will go on long useless tangential rants about my inability to do anything productive. She will tell me that because I didn't sleep at 11:00 she literally feels like killing me. But more so than any of this annoyance, my major conflict over the last couple years has admittedly been between myself, how I am perceived, and my parents.
Ever since my surgeries occurred, I have admittedly not done as well in school as I would have liked. My GPA is still a bit over 4.0, and I'm not really that satisfied with it. But the only reason it really upsets me so much is my mom contends that I do not care. But even this is not the real conflict.
The real conflict is between how my peers treat me, and how my parents treat me. Heck, even how my teachers treat me. Although my mom won't let me get a driver's license, let me go to a LAN in Berkeley, or be away for dinner EVER, at school I am treated with a lot of respect. People come to me with their questions, liken me to widely liked people in the classes before us.
Next year I will be the president of the second largest club on campus. I'll be dealing with the most money of any club on campus, and I'll be managing around 60 individuals.
But I still lack the ability to drive or be out of the house?
Another deep contradiction that I have fought over is the fact my parents often cite my gross immaturity. Although there are indeed moments where I have made seriously poor judgements, I would like to think my judgements are pretty accurate. I am indeed an administrator on the English language Wikipedia, which bears a ton of responsibility. Apart from the responsibilities of being one of 800 active administrators, I also am a member of the OTRS team, which deals with a variety of legal complains, as well as requests for copyright permission. Yes. So immature.
But in the end I need to reconcile these differences. Even though my mom has no friends, yet insults my lack of sociality, and others talk to me as some sort of highly competent person at school that I may or may not be, it comes down to me to reconcile the differences. Whether it be by improving my physique by lifting weights, ignoring my mom's comments, or really addressing my own lesser faults, I must address my contradictions.
Also can't figure out whether to get a SteelSeries Kinzu,
razer mouse, or MX 518
Also looking at a New Steelseries Siberia In-Ear Stereo Earset
In terms of keyboard I'll either get mechanical or a Qsenn.
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